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Gratitude for the Bounty of the Season

IMG_1011When we realize that we are a part of nature and not something separate from it, when we see that we aren’t protecting or destroying something different from ourselves, we can really start to sink into nature’s rhythms and enjoy a deeper connection with all that exists. There are days that this is clearer than others. Or maybe some days just allow us time to reflect on this more than others. The Autumn Equinox is one of those days. A brief period of time that light and dark are in equal balance. We can give thanks for our bounty and set intentions for what we would like to experience in the coming months. I suppose we could do this on a daily basis and I’m sure some people do just that, but for me, I tend to get caught up in daily living and I appreciate the reminder to create space, feel the connection, and move forward with a positive focus. Rituals are important to me as they set the structure and framework for my life. Everything else drapes around that foundation.

On a different note, but still working with the bounty of the season, I have started to ferment my own veggies so that I can reap the amazing health benefits. I started with an easy sauerkraut recipe. Previously I had only had pre-made sauerkraut purchased at the grocery store. I never liked it. I could never even stand the smell of it. I kept hearing and reading how delicious it is if you make your own. The recipe met all of my requirements to try which is a low number of ingredients and minimal time to complete. Besides, it seemed like a fun science experiment on my kitchen counter that I had to check daily. I enjoyed this process. The problem was that I still didn’t like it. I want to like it, but I don’t. In my determination to use what I had made, knowing that there is no way my family will eat it, I found a recipe for coleslaw made out of sauerkraut. It’s delicious!! I’m so happy to have found a way to use the homemade sauerkraut without cooking off the beneficial bacterial that tastes so good.

Ayurvedically speaking, these veggies are “cooked” through the fermentation process so they are great for optimizing digestion and building the digestive fire. This makes it a perfect food to incorporate as we move into cooler weather. I’m curious if you are interested in fermenting veggies and if you already are, what ways are you enjoying them?

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$20 bags or minibar wine

As my plane landed back in Florida on Sunday afternoon, I was greeted with the news of the death of Philip Seymour Hoffman. Like every other recovering addict I know, I felt sick. 2.5 million people die each year from a disease that I tend to forget about. Every so often I am slapped back to reality. This was one of those slaps. It was as if someone was grabbing me by the shoulders and shaking me, saying,  It doesn’t matter that you have been sober for over 17 years, you are still a drunk and a drug addict. You are one slip away from your kids finding you on the bathroom floor. Even while I write this , days later, I can feel the heaviness on my chest and a lump in my throat.

Later that same day, a friend of mine posted something on Facebook which read:  I’m not sure which is more sad, the death of PSH or the small bottles of wine that I keep for cooking that I can’t stop drinking. I wanted to respond to her that these events are equally devastating, that I understood how she felt, that I had been her. I know what it is like to have no control over the substance I am putting into my body. I have lied, cheated, and stole among many other things to get the next drink or drug. But I didn’t. I didn’t respond. I was tired from my trip. The next day the post was down.

I struggled with reaching out to her. It’s not that she doesn’t know that I am in recovery. Everybody knows I’m in recovery. It’s not that I didn’t want to help, I do. I’m not sure why I hesitated. I think it’s a part of me pretending that I am removed from the messy stuff now. It’s funny that this realization makes me closer to the messiness than ever. I sent a private message and I’m hoping to hear back. Either way, I have put the offer out to her. I hope to be able to tell her that she has a chance at another life if she can stay away from the small bottles one day (or minute) at a time. Because that’s what it feels like sometimes, like a whole other life in the same body. I want to let her know that although life has many challenges, everything is manageable when we give up the drink and the drug. I want to show her that there is a huge support system available 24/7 for the times when the urge is stronger than we are. She doesn’t need to do this alone.

As it says in the literature of Alcoholics Anonymous, this disease is cunning, baffling, and powerful. These words are as true to me now as they were the first time I heard them. As a person in recovery, I make choices each day that are either leading me towards a drink or away from one. I am grateful that I have made it through another day and that I have plans tomorrow that will continue to lead me away from taking that first drink or drug.

I Voted!

Vote Oregon!

Vote Oregon! (Photo credit: jugbo)

As much as I am ready to be beyond the election this year, I was really psyched to vote today! I’m not sure why, but we are allowed to vote early in Florida. Maybe because it takes so much time to fill the little circles in on the ballot. I find it mind-boggling that it isn’t computerized here! Anyway, this isn’t the point of this post. The point is that I felt empowered as I left the polling place. I thought of all the women in the past who weren’t able to vote. I thought of the first few brave women who stood up and acknowledged the crime in not allowing women to be part of the process. I wondered if their mothers’ secretly cheered them on, if their husbands’ gave them the silent treatment, if their children were embarrassed. Women risked their lives more than once for me to be able to place my preference on a ballot. I am honored and humbled by the heroism that needed to be inside each and every man and woman who stood up and said there should be equality. I was proud to show my support for them today by utilizing this privilege of voting. I hope we never forget their struggle and take for granted this right.

There are many wonderful things about our country and I am proud to be an American. There are also many things that need to be worked out. Because we are always growing and changing, it would seem logical that our country would grow and change too. Some things that were relevent 200 years ago are still relevent today and somethings need to change that maybe were enacted only 10 years ago. Sometimes (or always) change is scary but holding onto old ideas for the sake of holding on can be painful. As we see injustices happening and as we feel progress being stifled, we can find strength and encouragement by remembering the men and women who first brought up the preposterous idea of gender equality at the polls. It isn’t easy or glamorous to make an unpopular stand and speak the truth about what is happening. If we want to see our country evolve and grow along with us, it is not only our right but our duty.

Balancing tip-Your doctor doesn’t have the last word on your health! You have the ability to take control of your health starting right now. You decide your health is important when you make positive food choices. You decide that your body is important when you move it a little each day. You take control when you seek out trusted alternative health practitioners and get second and third opinions. If you need help navigating through some of the information out there that sometimes seems conflicting, please reach out to me. I have developed an unofficial network of holistic practitioners in many parts of the country. These people are doing amazing things with nutrition, energy, acupuncture, herbs, IV vitamin therapy, kinesiology, nutritional supplements, yoga therapy and much more. I am talking about disease reversal! I am talking about moving away from pharmaceuticals. Please know that I know that some pharmaceuticals are a blessing and we may need to take them for some conditions. My point is that things have gotten out of hand and this is me standing up and saying, “Something is wrong and we need to evolve!”

gratitude continued…

Goodwill Industries

Goodwill Industries (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

My focus for the past week has been on gratitude. It started, as most of you know, with being the theme of a yoga class. I decided to see what would happen if I really made an effort to stay with that as my primary focus. Of course I would think of other things and go about my normal life, but my intention was to keep returning to a place of gratitude and look for things to feel grateful about. I even used an app on my iPad to draw a picture of something I felt really grateful for. Whenever I was having trouble finding that feeling in my heart, I pulled up the picture and let myself sink into it emotionally so that soon enough–I was feeling a swelling in my chest and an expansion in my body. I wanted to let you know that I have had an amazing week! Not only do I feel really lucky for all the good things in my life, but I have actually had a bunch of things happen this week that give me reason to be even more grateful! I know it sounds like a bunch of crap but I’m telling you this really worked for me.

I am going to challenge each of you to try it for 7 days. Just shift your focus to the things you are grateful for. If you don’t feel like you can draw, print a picture from the computer of something you are super grateful for and put it in your pocket or purse. Whenever you catch yourself feeling lack or fear, pull it out and look at it for a minute until your focus shifts. Feel gratitude for a couple of minutes when you first wake up and right before you go to bed. It’s that simple. That which we focus on grows. As we focus our attention on gratitude, we are provided more opportunities to feel grateful. Have fun and let me know what happens for you!

Balancing tip-Start weaning off the Teflon! This chemical non-stick coating although very convenient, emits toxic fumes when overheated. Not only that, but as normal wear and tear happen, we ingest tiny particles into our body with the food we are eating. Some of the health dangers include: flu-like symptoms, smaller birth weight and size in newborns, elevated cholesterol, abnormal thyroid function, liver inflammation, and weakened immune system. There are safer alternatives available such as stainless steel and cast iron. You don’t need to break the bank replacing all of your cookware. I picked up a cast iron skillet recently at Goodwill for $10. You can just replace a piece at a time. If you need to continue using the non-stick for a while, do so on the lowest temperature possible to cook your food safely. Learning to cook on these different surfaces takes a little practice but I have found the transition to be pretty painless.  🙂

 

 

Gratitude

Today’s theme was gratitude. We started our yoga practice bringing to mind something that we felt incredibly grateful for. This could have been anything: a person in our life, a situation we were happy with, or even the fact that we made it to a yoga class this morning. We focused on this idea until we could actually feel a swell of emotion in our chest. It was easier for some, but we all felt the energy. Once this feeling was recognized and cultivated by continuing to keep our awareness there, we began to move our bodies and engage the breath. Our goal was to open energy channels in the body to allow this feeling of gratitude in our chest to expand freely through our whole being. We wanted to end the practice feeling like large vibrating balls of grateful energy. As we came to areas of tightness and constriction we had an option of focusing on the discomfort or focusing on this beautiful flow of gratitude. When we chose to focus on the discomfort, it grew. When we would shift our focus and reconnect with that feeling of gratitude, that’s what grew. We laughed during some particularly difficult postures and thought we would never be able to get back to feeling grateful.

This was one of my favorite classes that I have ever led. As we move through the rest of our week, I hope we can remember to focus on gratitude as opposed to the problems we are dealing with at any given moment. It doesn’t matter if we are in a class or living our daily life, our focus causes expansion. What do you want to expand?

Balancing Tip-Ayurveda tells us that incorporating hot spices into our diet can stoke our digestive fire. We call this fire Agni. Using spices early in the day can keep our digestion humming for the whole day. An easy way to add spice is by adding cinnamon, black pepper, nutmeg, and ginger to our smoothie or oatmeal or any hot cereal in the morning. Don’t be afraid to eat nontraditional breakfast items in the morning. We had blackened salmon last night and I took the left overs and put it over a salad this morning. The spice was a nice addition to the taste but I also know that my body will be effectively breaking down everything else I eat today. 🙂

asking for help

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These past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind of activities and events. Many of which have given me cause to reflect on what is happening in my life. I celebrated a birthday, Mother’s Day, and my 16 year sobriety anniversary within two weeks. I am so grateful to be where I am today and I have been enjoying all of the mayhem that goes along with juggling family and career. Mixed in with the feeling of gratitude was some uneasiness. I’m sure many of you know the feeling and have heard the voice. The one that says, “Who am I to be thinking of expanding my business?, Who would want to learn from me?, What makes me think I have that much to offer?” This voice sucks. I hear it less and less as the years go by, but every once in a while I find myself caught up in self-doubt. Luckily, I have acquired some tools over the years for just this very situation. As I sat in my morning meditation the other day, I asked the Universe to show me if I was ready. I asked that my ego step aside and I become a channel for something greater than me. With that, I got up and got ready for the day while continuing to beat myself up. (It’s funny-or crazy-how quickly I can vacillate from one extreme to the other.)

My morning was unusually smooth, everyone off to work and school without a hitch. I arrived to work feeling less capable than normal but wanting to find clues that I was on the right path. I had three massages scheduled. All of them were new clients. As I talked with the first woman before her session, she revealed that she was struggling with some emotional issues and that she would be open to any suggestions that I may have. I stepped out of the room to let her undress and thought to myself, “I don’t know what to tell her.” Just then, I passed a regular client in the hall who had a session the week before. She said, “Thank you so much for the visualization exercise you gave me last week. It really helped. Every time I feel pain, I think of what you said and within minutes the pain is gone.” Then she gave me a hug and walked into a yoga class. My first clue. I was on the right path. I can help the woman who is in the treatment room waiting for me. That client left with a renewed hope and willingness to continue to make time for wellness. My next client came in for stress relief and floated out, stating that she thought my “hands had eyes because they stopped at every area in need.” My second clue. I do have something offer. My final client of the day is very much on edge. While I am talking to her before her session, she sternly stops the conversation and says, “With all do respect, I just need a massage.” Thankfully, I was beginning to feel better and her attitude didn’t bother me at all. Shortly after putting my hands on her, she began to release. She cried like a baby and hugged me three times before she booked another appointment. My third and final clue. I thanked the Universe for providing encouragement and I stated out loud, “OK, I get it, I’m moving in the right direction!”

My point in sharing this is to offer some hope and tools in case you experience similar negative self talk. I think a lot of people feel this from time to time. Please know that it is ok to ask for help from a friend, a professional, or whatever your idea is of a Higher Power. I have always received the help and support I needed when I have had the courage to ask. It hasn’t always been what I wanted, but it has been exactly what I needed.

Balancing Tip: Since I am still obsessed with my new juicer, I am going to share my current favorite morning juice. 1 large cucumber, 1 large carrot, a handful of leaves (romaine, spinach, or other green leaf), 1 granny smith apple, 1/2 lemon, about an inch of ginger. I have been pouring it over ice thanks to a tip from the writer of babeandablender.com (Thank you!). Super delicious!

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