Learning to trust my intuition has not been easy. I am an habitual second-guesser. Not only do I allow my own mind to second-guess my ideas, but I allow and invite others to second-guess with me! For the past few years I have made developing my intuition a priority. I have seen others use knowledge received intuitively to really help other people physically and emotionally. I have witnessed and received this kind of help with amazement. On one hand it sparked something in me that made me feel like I would be able to do the same thing. On the other hand (the second-guesser’s hand), who am I to think I could have such a gift?
The first step was to start to listen to the information without questioning. I started small. This fruit or that fruit at the market. Which route to take on my drive home. But then, almost immediately, I started getting information to pass along to my clients. I would be in the middle of a massage or Reiki treatment and there would be this idea that wouldn’t leave. Often, the more I tried to think of other things, the louder the idea became. The idea could be about anything. Usually it was about ordinary life stuff. The person needing to take more time for themselves or acknowledging that the client was suffering from a broken heart. I have spent a lot of time questioning and second-guessing these ideas, fearful that it was my imagination going too far or that the client would think I was crazy. I would rationalize that they came for a massage, if they wanted a psychic reading, they would have gone to the metaphysical bookstore down the street. It was fear. After a while, as I became more comfortable, I realized that it didn’t happen with everyone. Maybe, I thought, it only happens if they are open to it. Maybe I need to say the information that is coming through. It was difficult. The information rarely ever makes sense to me. I have come to understand that it doesn’t need to make sense to me because I am just the vehicle. Holy crap! This was scary. Why did I want to be able to do this?
Here goes. I am massaging a woman who I have never met before, I get the feeling that a man in this woman’s life is very sick and not doing what the doctors are telling him to do. She needs to more closely monitor his medications and such. As I tentatively convey this information, she gets a smirk on her face and says, “I knew it!” It is her father who happens to be currently undergoing chemotherapy treatments for prostate cancer. She feels grateful for the heads up and I am relieved that she had any idea about what I was talking about! Another time, a young woman comes in for a Reiki treatment but gives me very little information about herself or what is happening in her life. Soon after the session begins, I feel the energy of a man in the room with us. He feels to me like a practical joker, comedian type. The thoughts in my mind are totally second-guessing! I am not even sure how to begin to tell this woman what I am feeling. As I try to push it away, it gets stronger. It starts crowding me. I know I need to let the words out. Finally, I take a deep breath and calmly try to say what I am sensing. There is complete recognition on her part. She cries and lets me know that it is her father who recently passed on. I am able to let them have a conversation through me. By the end we were both crying. I was so honored to have been able to be a part of something so meaningful. I have seen this woman many times since. She feels that the conversation she had with her father that day set her back onto the right track. She enrolled in school and is doing positive things for herself. There are many stories similar to both of these instances.
I have also had the occasional client who denies everything I say. No, they aren’t suffering and they don’t believe in voodoo. I am getting better with this. Maybe my intuition is off that day or maybe they just aren’t ready. Either way, I am going to keep talking.
*I have decided to add nutrition and/or diet tips to the bottom of my posts. These tips are for healthy people. Please don’t do anything against a doctor’s advice.
Nutrition and diet tip #1–fast. Start incorporating a daily fast of 12 hours. It’s not that hard to do if you stop eating after dinner. Our digestive system uses that time to catch up and get a little rest. If you don’t find it too challenging, you can do it for 15 hours once a week. Good luck and keep me posted!